Yesterday was hard. I pulled back the tangle of unmade covers around nine, and fell into bed feeling worn out and past the verge of tears. I think I was too tired to cry, Thursday had taken its toll. It was one of those days where everything culminated to a feeling of utter fogginess, the inability to pinpoint anything that had contributed to the difficulty of the day. Everything felt so heavy. I suppose all I need to say to explain is that staying home with a special needs eight year old, an emotional, high energy seven year old, and a no napping three year old can wear a person out, if they don’t take a time out now and then.
As said by loving mothers around the world since the beginning of time: motherhood is the hardest thing one will ever do, yet the culminating point of joy in one’s life. I love it so much it hurts and can say with absolute certainty that it is the most beautiful aspect of my life, apart from my marriage. As a little girl I knew I would be a mama. To mother has always been my calling, and I would rather have a handful of exhausted moments and be a mother than not have these amazing babies in my world. They are my everything. But it is also really hard, too. Seriously such a challenge most days.
That night after the kids had been fed, bathed, read to and tucked in, I remembered my oils and the emotional support they can give and how they just might give me the respite I needed after a grueling day. I poured a hot bath with Epsom salts, bentonite clay, and lavender, copaiba, rose, and frankincense oils. After soaking and being surrounded by crystals and candlelight, I was already beginning to feel better. I waited until the water was cooled, then got ready for bed and poured a glass of pinot. I grabbed my oil diffuser from my bedside table and diffused four drops of Stress Away (if you haven't smelled this blend, you have no idea what you're missing), one drop of Rose, and four drops of Lavender. I put Joy on my heart and on the back of my neck. I smelled Orange Vitality and put a drop of it in my mason jar glass of room-temp water to sip. I sat there in the bed, eyes closed, and felt like I was in a spa somewhere far away, tucked in the mountains again. I felt transported. It feel so nice. Such a relief.
Sometimes in life we just need a gentle push in the right direction to gather our momentum once again. We need the opportunity to nurture our own emotional needs, to give our soul well-deserved attention that most times goes neglected. I think it’s pretty wonderful that I have these beautiful oils...nature’s medicines...at my disposal to help me out, if I need it. I went to bed that night feeling relaxed and calm. And, in the morning, that fog had lifted, and I was ready to spend the day with my little ones.